Charles J.

Some time has passed now since Project Rockstar has finished and I am still sorting out the reverberations of it in my own personal life. I still have a hard time believing that the whole thing actually happened. Did I really do all those things? Did I really experience that growth? Am I really that person? These are questions I find myself asking from time to time. The answer is that yes those things happened.

Rockstar was without a doubt the best nine weeks of my life. I was telling a friend of mine the experiences my fellow rock stars and I had on the program without telling him I was on a program, merely on an awesome trip with some buddies. After I got halfway through he looked at me and said “holy shit dude, you guys were living like rock stars!” He was right. During those nine weeks the things that went down were just so out of the ordinary for most people that they can only be described as legendary. If all Rock star was an opportunity to experience 9 weeks like I experienced than I would say do it!

However, it is so much more than just 9 awesome weeks. Living through those 9 weeks changes you. You just begin to think of yourself a bit differently when you SNL a 9 or you bring a girl to your hotel room and kick her out because another girl who you want more wants to see you. Having four girls in your hotel room in one day just has a way of making you realize how awesome you are.

But I am still trying to figure out what the long term effects that will be. I have certainly not been able to reach the same heights of awesomeness that I reached during those 9 weeks (although by any normal standard its still very awesome). Your old life has a way of trying to reassert control and transform you back to how things were before… or at the very least as close to how things were before as they could possibly be. Yet although I am fighting that I now know what is possible and that is a fire that is impossible to extinguish.

Knowing what is possible is scary in a way. At the risk of using a much worn out cliché, it is very similar to the movie the Matrix when the main character is faced with the choice of taking either the red pill or the blue pill. Project Rockstar is the red pill. I truly realized that when I returned to my old job. My tolerance level for all the bullshit and sacrifices a high powered job I felt no passion for requires was obliterated.

I simply could not take being told what to do or being forced to stay in the office late into the night and sacrifice my personal life. The knowledge that I was spending my time doing something I was not passionate about began to eat away at me. The old lies about well I could do this for several years, move up etc. no longer did anything for me. They were hollow. I could not really relate to my colleagues who were willing to put up with it all. It got to the point where I ended up quitting. I have no idea yet whether that decision will turn out to be the right one. I am terrified in fact that I might have thrown everything away. But once I knew what type of life was possible I couldn’t go back.

Being the type of person who lives a life that revolves around his passions is something that I simply cannot go back on. I am still trying to figure out which passions I should focus on to try and generate income for myself and what the smartest long-term way to go about doing that would be. However, what I will not compromise on is choosing a life or a path that is not inherently fulfilling day in and day out. To do so would be the mark of an inferior man and a negation of the whole point of Rockstar. In Rockstar more than just techniques or routines you learn what it is to live your life in the fullest way possible as a man. You learn to always go after what you want.

Game wise the realization of knowing what is possible and what you are capable of it truly transformative. Whenever I don’t approach a beautiful girl and I try to make excuses for myself I know I am lying to myself. I know that it is just fear talking. Either I myself was in situations where I opened a girl like that and something amazing happened or one of my fellow Rockstars did and something amazing happened to them. That knowledge prevents me from ever being ok with not going 100% after what I want.

I still have no idea how this new knowledge and awareness is going to play out. It makes me nervous in a way because I feel what I expect from life now has just gone up 1000 fold and that if I try and have it all I might end up throwing away a nice comfortable existence. Several of my family members in fact have told me that already.

Yet than again you don’t really search out a program like this unless you want to have one of the most amazing lives possible despite the risks involved. For those of you who aspire to that, who want to try and have a truly outlier life than this is the program for you. The things that Venture, Sterling, Vici, Intrigue, Future, Starlight, Ripper and all the other instructors taught me literally shifted the way I view life and myself. They helped me get closer to my ideal self. If you sign up next year and are lucky enough to become a part of the program then they will transform your life as well. Once they do, there is no going back.